To My Wife #1

Life is a roller coaster as it is.  But when you are going through the trials and troubles of dealing with infertility it makes it even more crazy.  Different issues that may normally not effect us or other couples can come up and create issues without warning.  Just depends on the day.  But regardless and despite everything we have gone through I love her so much.  I heard a song the other day by Mayday Parade and it spoke directly to my heart and soul.  It is a song that I direct to my wife...hold on to me...we will make it through together. 

"Hold Onto Me"

I know I've got my problems and it starts with me
She saw something inside that I can't see
And late at night, yeah she'll comfort me
Hold onto me, Hold onto me

I got a nervous habit and I drink too much
She said she hates her life and wants to change her ways
She wakes in the night and whispers
Oh so quiet

Hold onto me, Hold onto me
Don't you ever leave, Don't you ever leave
I know I've got my problems and its probably me
So hold onto me, Hold onto me

Stayed up to late and it hurts to breathe
Said it's 4 A.M., girl go back to sleep
Sometimes at night I can hear her dreams

Come rescue me, Come rescue
Don't you ever leave, Don't you ever leave
I know we got our problems and its probably me
So hold onto me, Hold onto me

I'm a drifters body in an open sea
And I've seen my reflection staring right back at me
With no place to go and you're left all alone
There's no place like home

Hold onto me, Hold onto me
Just stay with me, Just stay with me
I know we got our problems and you'll probably leave
So hold onto me, Hold onto me

I could never leave, I will never leave
So hold onto me, Hold on to me

 

Dear child,

You need to know that your mother is so special to me.  And although our relationship isn't always sunshine and roses...it is excellent.  As you go through life do not strive for perfection...unless you don't sink to the bottom of the bathtub when you step in...perfection cannot be attained.  Excellence however can.  And regardless of circumstances that come up...I may be beat up, weak, and tired...but you and your mother can always HOLD ON TO ME and I WILL be there to love and give my best to you and her.

 

Hold on to me

 

Your dad